sleepless night

I can't sleep for 1-2 hours yesterday cos of those fking people. This is the first time i use such words on ppl like this.

I had been thinking why i hate them so much before that i come to a conclusion that i don't want to join them for any outing starting this year 2010. Thinking and thinking... Then i thought of the past. In my 10 to 11 years old, i remember vividly going to my uncle's house to help him spring cleaning since he moved to a new house. He treated us buffet. Some cheap ones. We were playing in his room. Then we got hungry so i went to grab some chicken wings. "They" ask me to help them take some too. So okay lor since i am on my way. Then i grab some, got scolded by uncle. He: where did you eat the chicken wings? Me: Inside your room. He: Why you eat in my room?! IT'S SO OILY!!! Me: They ask me to help them take also. He: But you shouldn't have take it into my room! (*SHOUTS SHOUT SHOUTS) Those bastards and bitches doesn't even come out and admit their wrong doings. Never mind i suay lo.

Next, we went swimming at big splash. At the wavy pool there i lost my rhythm in the wave and almost got drown that i had to grab others hands to catch a breath.And i came up i saw Damn Lim laughing. Fk you! I almost drown u never even save me and u were there laughing.

Next, my birthday. I finally know why they gave me that bundle of money. BECAUSE THEY THOUGHT I AM A MONEY FACE PERSON. That i could not get any present and i was angry? Please la i admit i am a bit materialistic but depends on situation lor. I won't force people to celebrate my birthday did i? I only say my birthday is when that does not mean i really want present but if you want to give i don't mind. I know receiving presents from you people have to come with a price one. Either, i have to return one to u or i have to listen to your commands cos i cannot talk back to you right? And your money really hurts my pride lei. You think charity donation? Money cannot solve all problems maybe can only solve ur problem. Kid, think about ur actions la. Where got people give money on their birthday? Look down on me huh? Your brain is that narrow? IQ high but EQ so low. Mind your own manners also la. Say such things on people's birthday and still want to teach other people how to behave. So kiam dun come lorh. Not like i didn't accommodate to your convenience and i wanted so much to come lo. Stand there doing nothing at all. Waiting for my ans... whats there to wait anyway? I gave u ans already not like you care to suit my interests. You only care about ur pocket money and your own present during your birthday. Bingo right? You all don't want to celebrate cos u all are afraid u lose out cos you want something in return right? I dun get why you all come anyway? The main thing is not celebrate my birthday but i know is some other reasons.

After that, you want to invite me to your room. Okay lor, see each other once a year thingy. You said,"On my birthday, i will treat all of you" It really hurts you know? I just recover myself and you invite me to agitate me again? And that sentence you made it the same as hinting me that i didn't treat you on my birthday is it? You want to make things ugly? Keep the money for urself lo, I take the money u all got the chance to say I am such money face person so on. I give back both parties will be overjoyed that you celebrate right after i left immediately right. You think i am so stingy person? I won't waste a single cent on people who don't deserve it and bully me any other time.

Funny thing, you all were still so happy chit chatting and drinking while someone close is unhappy and missing on the other side? Not an apology is acknowledge? I admit i was wrong to walk away so suddenly but you all were even more unforgivable to behave like a child on someone's birthday. "Don't go la so expensive" "I eat before not nice" "All of you only care about urself right? Say what sincere? check the dictionary what it means before u use it. Celebrating right after the bitch had gone home? Never mind, a lesson learnt... Thanks a lot for the present.

I have got a nice memorable birthday today! woots i swear! I make a complete fool of myself. Hell! I am not going to spend any of my time with "them" anymore and will not
"qian jiu" them. It's too much le. I feel like blogging this ugly matter for long time ago as i cannot tahan them. I swear in my heart that i will not go out with them anymore. Then new year day they jio me go out for movie. i reject thousand times then i give up to them. But since it already happen so be it. Why must make things until so ugly? Have you ever encounter people forking out money in front of you before on your birthday? Okay thats kind of acceptable. But, what kind of birthday is this when you are not celebrating what you like on this special day" Did you heard celebrators say," "this and this is so ex", "go kfc la" Ok i suit with all of you loh let's go to kfc and celebrate. Then you all tell me, eh dun like this la seriously choose something you like" You tell me this when all the shops are closed on Chinese new year day??? I say anything le go kfc let's go. Then you all walk one round in the mac and come back on the same spot again and look at me. Like it's my fault. I never asked all of you to spend this F-ing birthday with me lei! Please la. You say yourself sincerity? Where is that? "Throw" me the money and yay! this is your birthday gift??! You treat me as what? Money face ar?

I come back without any apology from them. F up! Firstly, i never said i wanted to join them for movies and birthday i said no need to celebrate for me. And you throw me the money and call this a celebration. Wah, never mind they are all kids from the same age as me i dun wanna talk to them about growing up stuff. Duno how to "zuo ren" one. So kiam siap then don't celebrate loh. Organise this fking thing make my day even worst. "Almost close" to family members need to make things until like that meh? Anyway i dun treat them as my "almost close family members" anymore. They also dun treat me as one ma. I heard them said("friends" let's go). I was thinking, huh friends? Alright maybe we're not that close at all. So stingy might as well dun come and celebrate at all. FUCK sia. After 18 years, i finally vent it off. I am damn shuang! woots. I give them a firm no no to their invitation liao, all of them only know to be in their own groups then go for ur own outing lar, why invite insignificant people to this group when u dun wan to talk to them and share decisions? So old liao still duno how to think. I think they should just go out and meet more "ugly" people like them. Diaoz.