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Now poly is starting afresh a new semester. I'm satisfied with my results and oh my goodness. This time our class conflict is getting more outrageous. The guy friend wanted a reconcile but i felt that it's ok that everyone makes mistakes and as long as he change himself and stop being like a child, i don't mind. But i hate it when everyone keeps talking bad about other people. I realise, although we gossip a lot, all of us doesn't understand one another well too.
So, I started to create general topics for everyone. But that gal friend of mine, another childish and sensitive person started to change topics again back to gossip. I kind of dislike this. Nobody actually listened to me. Gossip for 3 months about the same few people she still wanted to gossip. She can even talk about our ex guy friend bad traits again and again and again. What kind of friend is that. Only a small quarrel, he admited he's wrong and my guy friend cannot forgive him already. Ok can understand that because he did something really bad which is noting down his password for NYP portal to check his results. "做人要心胸广阔,何况是男的。“ After all it's his choice too. I wished he can reconcile too because i knew he would not repeat his mistakes again, not too much. Now, I find her enemy classmates are a little better. One of her enemy friend which is my ex-enemy guy friend, talk to me. What i dislike him is because, being a guy, he's so stingy and calculative in front of gals. But, he's sociable which is a good thing. Dotz and the gal friend of mine said," sociable people aren't good, he's trying to make convo." =.= obviously he's making convo~ Then she said,"he want to make convo so that he feel better doing projects since sch is restarting." I am thinking nothing wrong with that. She wanted to convince me that he is selfish and all to talk to you because school is starting soon. Aiya, that's social purpose and everyone is doing that so that they will meet at the same venue, eat together. Zzz That's my life my choice, who i want to be it's my problem. What attitude to use on which type of person is my choice. There's one time i said, " Anthony is not a bad person and all just because he liked to talk to my gal friend enemy doesn't mean he's a bad person" AND all in my gal friend mind is" Why u keep protecting him, like him izzit?" LOLx I really nothing to say because i don't want to explain to her. Now she change her mind and said,
Enough of her. Sometimes i felt that i also need to change my behaviour. I look at one of my best secondary school friends, she had changed to a better person. Someone sociable, kind, caring, matured. Just that her expectation of future husband is high too. Not only that she got a quite good looking face.
While i looked at myself,
So, I started to create general topics for everyone. But that gal friend of mine, another childish and sensitive person started to change topics again back to gossip. I kind of dislike this. Nobody actually listened to me. Gossip for 3 months about the same few people she still wanted to gossip. She can even talk about our ex guy friend bad traits again and again and again. What kind of friend is that. Only a small quarrel, he admited he's wrong and my guy friend cannot forgive him already. Ok can understand that because he did something really bad which is noting down his password for NYP portal to check his results. "做人要心胸广阔,何况是男的。“ After all it's his choice too. I wished he can reconcile too because i knew he would not repeat his mistakes again, not too much. Now, I find her enemy classmates are a little better. One of her enemy friend which is my ex-enemy guy friend, talk to me. What i dislike him is because, being a guy, he's so stingy and calculative in front of gals. But, he's sociable which is a good thing. Dotz and the gal friend of mine said," sociable people aren't good, he's trying to make convo." =.= obviously he's making convo~ Then she said,"he want to make convo so that he feel better doing projects since sch is restarting." I am thinking nothing wrong with that. She wanted to convince me that he is selfish and all to talk to you because school is starting soon. Aiya, that's social purpose and everyone is doing that so that they will meet at the same venue, eat together. Zzz That's my life my choice, who i want to be it's my problem. What attitude to use on which type of person is my choice. There's one time i said, " Anthony is not a bad person and all just because he liked to talk to my gal friend enemy doesn't mean he's a bad person" AND all in my gal friend mind is" Why u keep protecting him, like him izzit?" LOLx I really nothing to say because i don't want to explain to her. Now she change her mind and said,
actually, ant is afterall not a bad person. After all the samson incident. HAIZ She once said, "
Im great at looking at people and understand people's behaviour" If that's the case, why you can change a person's perception and impression of the person after several incident and comments by other people? Go study some psychology before you said sth like that. Aishh stop complaining. I felt childish sometimes too. Why i keep saying psychology things is that i don't like people to keep pushing me to others i don't like and assume that i like and letting the whole world to know and convince them that "i like that person". I felt that she's not respecting me. She can just play for a while i don't care but too much is too much.
Enough of her. Sometimes i felt that i also need to change my behaviour. I look at one of my best secondary school friends, she had changed to a better person. Someone sociable, kind, caring, matured. Just that her expectation of future husband is high too. Not only that she got a quite good looking face.
While i looked at myself,
- cannot talk much in some ocassions.
- quite ugly
- quite selfish
- keep having negative thoughts about some people around me
- bad temper
- bad manners
- shy
- poor
- Petty sometimes
- bad hairstyle
- calculative sometimes since im a poor child
- lazy
- no aura around me be it (pretty,sexy or cute)
- Criticise people sometimes in a jokingly manner but in a private way meaning not announcing to the whole world about ur bad habits etc.
- low confidence/ self esteem
- i hate my big thighs
Good points are
- I am quite generous sometimes if i felt happy
- Can do housework automatically for my parents
- hardworking in terms of study and other stuff
- interested in all kinds of sports, nature, culture bascically many things that i liked ( so that people won't be bored with me"
- boring person? I don't think so. Many people said im funny but i seldom realised it until they tell me.
- Like to sing but shy to sing infront of strangers
- Like to dance to but shy
- Considered average weight which i like that
- One of my friend said im special which i liked that. :)
- Mother said i got brains cos i can think of crazy ideas for some spoilt household items and make it useable.
I think i'm self advertising myself. PS: this is not a match- making forum.